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Post by Selena Right(A) on Feb 20, 2012 2:21:22 GMT -5
The night had been hell. She had gotten stabbed a while ago maybe five days at max and she had stitches in her stomach area and well....they had opened again. Selena had been forced to eat with a worried Kesey and walked upstairs, turned on the water and purged. The jerking had ripped open her stitches. Selena managed to flush the puke, brush her teeth and walk out of the bathroom before she fell. Of course, keeping her secret was more important then her life. It always had been and would be for a long time.
Of course, Kesey had found her after a minute or two and had drove her to the hospital, nearly crashing a few times on the way there. People who lived in Kesey's mansion were fucked up. Fucked in the head. Kesey was a really sweet guy who just cared. Which was the odd thing. It was weird for someone to care. Too really just care. It scared Selena.
Selena had gotten the stitches re-stitched but they said she was in a shaky condition all together so they wanted to keep her for a while. Selena agreed and signed the papers. Following a tall, dark doctor who signed something on the clipboard and said "We're admitting you to room 104, you'll have a room mate." Selena nodded and followed the doctor. Selena hadn't seen the room mate at first until she got on her hospital bed. Watching the doctor leave and a nurse come in, Selena looked over at Angel and muttered "Fucking great." and looked away. The nurse handed Selena a small paper cup of water and a cup of pils. The nurse told her it was Prozac. Prozac is used to treat depression, obsessive-compulsive disorder, some eating disorders, and panic attacks, Selena downed the pills and watched the nurse leave.
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Post by Angel Sala on Feb 22, 2012 3:37:28 GMT -5
They were weaning Angel off the pain medication already, and fuck did he hate that fact. As a recovering addict they felt it was in his best interest to be brought down to the minimum as soon as possible. Even though it had only three days they still figured it was fine to down his dose and let him suffer through the seering pain. Apparently getting stabbed in a major organ and having surgery to repair the damage, done by his own sister no less, wasn't enough, no, they really wanted to think about his action. He'd be damned if he was getting in the way of a stabbing again. Okay. That wasn't true, he had been protecting Rayne. God, that girl was on his mind, 24/7. It was to the point where he was starting to actually realize what he was feeling was more than anything he had before. It was... love, real love. It was unlike anything he had ever felt before.
But that was beside the point, he soon realized, as they wheeled another patient into his room. A room buddy, fun! Or at least he thought it would be until he saw who it was. Selena. That girl was a thorn in his side. It hadn't always been like that though. Honestly Angie missed the days where he had his best friend on his side instead of fighting against him. It was a long time coming though, Angel had sit back and watched her fall deeper and deeper into a whole she had made for herself. He had sit back and let it happen, too high to realize. That changed when he sobered up, got off the drugs, cleaned up his act. He realized Selena wasn't okay. She never was. Really he cared too much for her to see her drown in her own mess, he had to make a stand. So he did. Angel just didn't expect Selena to throw him away so easily. But she had and that pain was only rivaled by the pain of his currently healing stab wound. He heard her mutter something and he couldn't help but roll his eyes. "Shut the fuck up Sel" he couldn't stop himself from saying it. Really Angel hated being mean to her, hated himself for the things he said to her, but it was his only way of bandaging the hurt and hopefully, somehow, wake her up to the realities of the situation. Angel winced at the pain as he moved in his hospital bed, readjusting himself.
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Post by Selena Right(A) on Feb 22, 2012 9:20:22 GMT -5
Selena hadn't told the doctors and nurses the truth nor had he told Kesey the truth. Kesey hadn't believed her but whatever. the sad part was, Selena knew how bad this all was. She knew the drugs, drinking, partying and well eating disorder was unhealthy and she should/should of gotten help for it but she had been too stubborn. Selena didn't want help. Kesey knew she wanted to be dead. He had no idea how to make sense of that. Her dad showing up with Casey wasn't exactly something that would make her more mentally or emotionally stable.
Glancing over at Angel she realized she didn't know why he was here. Hearing him tell her to shut the fuck up, she looked away and out the window. "W-what happened?" she asked, suddenly nervous to speak to him.
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Post by Angel Sala on Mar 3, 2012 1:02:02 GMT -5
"Mia stabbed me" the answer was nonchalant, eyes closed as he tried to concentrate on anything but the slowly increasing pain, trying not to move. How he even managed to get in this predicament was still completely bewildering to him. He couldn't think about that now though, he couldn't think about the fact that his sister -whom he loved to bits- had tried to kill his girlfriend, the woman he was almost sure was 'the one' for him. It was a little mind blowing, but definitely his luck. After a few minutes of silence he sighed and looked over at her, "why're you here?"
Part of him really wanted to not care about Selena, but they had been friends for years, they had shared a home together. Yeah he could be an ass to her and hurt all he wanted, but it didn't change the fact that they had history and that meant something to Angel. Few people in his life had really stuck around, had really stayed despite all of the bullshit he put himself and those around him through. Sel was one of them, and even if their friendship was gone that small fact still held through, she had been there for him.
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Post by Selena Right(A) on Mar 4, 2012 13:50:47 GMT -5
Selena nodded when he heard Angel's response to her question. She bit her lip. Selena liked Mia for the most part but Mia was somewhat crazy and he wasn't sure if she waned to be around her to much. Mia was on a few drugs and did stupid things sometimes. After a few minutes she looked up at Angel as he spoke to her again. "Why'd she stab you?" Selena asked then a few seconds later spoke again. "My stitches re-opened." She told him. She didn't want to tell him that she got stabbed. Selena didn't want to tell anyone that she got stabbed. Some things would be better kept a secret. She knew she would have to tell people who stabbed her. A lot of people already knew she got stabbed. Gossip went around quick in Vega.
She had never been able to deal with issues the correct way. Selena had never really ever learned how to deal with issues correctly. Her dad had dealt with his issues with drugs, drinking and abuse. Like father like daughter. Selena had no one to abuse. Even if she did she wouldn't abuse anyone else anyhow. So self-abuse it was. The second something happened that stressed her out, she turned back to them. Looking up at Angel she bit her lip. "Angel..." She sighed, looking down, she wasn't sure how to say sorry to him.
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Post by Angel Sala on Mar 6, 2012 17:17:37 GMT -5
After thinking for a few minutes Angel just shrugged, a motion which caused him to winces from the pain he could actually feel now, "it's complicated." Complicated it was, or at least it was to him. He had more attached than his sister and girlfriend. Perhaps he was just mixing feelings into the whole situation, making things seem more complicated than than probably were. "Why do you even want to know?" Okay so the words came out a bit more harsh than he had intended, but in his defense he was experiencing some pain and being alone in such a confined space with someone he was supposed to hate just made things worse. "Stitches? What'd you get a back alley abortion or some shit?" Now that was a low blow, even for Angel. Immediately he felt bad, wishing he could take it back.
Angel was a lot of things, sure he could be heartless, but he could never be that way to Sel, no matter how much he was hurting, inside and out. "I'm sorry Sel, that was cruel, even for me." Angel was never above owning up to his mistakes, in fact those mistakes were what defined him, made him who he is, who he was, who he will be, so there was no shame claiming them. He was quiet for a while, at a loss for words, which was a rarity for Angie Sala. When she uttered his name, he looked at her, "what?" His voice soft, the hardness, the edge he had been showing her ever since the drug incident softening, weakening. It took so much energy to be harsh toward her, to be mean. It drained him every single time he got upset with her, but he'd never tell anyone that, never fully admit it, though by the way he said that one simple question it was becoming clear. A chink in his armor revealing a glimpse of what lay beneath.
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Post by Selena Right(A) on Mar 6, 2012 18:27:57 GMT -5
Selena nodded when he said it was complicated and responded "Everything is.". Everything in Vega seemed really complicated. Nothing was normal. Everything had complications and anything could be simple for two god damned seconds. Hearing his question, Selena shrugged. She didn't know how to respond to that one. Flinching at his question, she bit her lip. That one was harsh. She thought back to Aura and to her dead baby. She wondered what would have happened if she had aborted them. Things would have been different. A lot different."It's okay." She said, shrugging it off.
The fighting had been going on for long enough. Selena knew she was going to say sorry at this point. If he didn't accept it, she'd just leave him alone. "Angel," She said again, pausing for a few seconds. She didn't know how to begin this. Her eyes faced down at her lap. "I'm so sorry. I shouldn't have done that to you or myself. I shouldn't have done a lot of things that I did around then. If you still hate me.." Selena paused "then i'll just leave you alone." She said, trying not to tear up.
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Post by Angel Sala on Mar 29, 2012 4:23:00 GMT -5
Part of Angel just wanted to tell her to leave him alone, to forget he ever existed, to forget they had ever been friends. But there was another part, a bigger part, of him which softened to those words. It was like Sel had just ripped off one giant ass band aide, the flesh still sore beneath it. Angel was quiet for a while, his mind trying to wade through the pain from his wound, trying to come up with the right thing to say. Angel had a terrible track record for that though, saying the right thing had never been his strong suit. One way or another he just always seemed to fuck something up.
Finally he sighed. "Sel, shit happens, people make mistakes," he started, trying to think up how to put what he wanted to convey into words, "but you can't always expect people to just completely forgive you. You can't just expect people to forget and pretend like nothing happened. It's childish, wrong, and just... it's cruel" yes, Angel was still hurting from it, still felt like he had been betrayed. "But I'd be lying if I said I didn't still care about you, if I said it doesn't hurt me just as much as it hurts you when I say stupid, mean shit." Angel finally looked at her, "you're still my chickadee, I still love you, I'd still give my life for you, but just don't expect me to pretend like none of this ever happened." Angel meant every word.
Selena had been one of his best friends, he loved her not in the sense someone would think. There was no romantic or physical attraction there, there never had been for Angel. It wasn't because Sel wasn't beautiful, she was, it was more for the fact that he just never saw her like that. Angel couldn't quite place the love he had for Sel, it was stuck somewhere between family and friend and something else that just was. It was something only he and Sel could really understand. Angel's friends meant the world to him, there were few he considered close, but those he did he treasured over even himself. Selena was one of those people. Angel just wanted to make it clear that, yes he'd let it all go, but he wasn't willing to sweep it under the rug and pretend like it never happened. Cause it did, there was no changing that....
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Post by Selena Right(A) on Mar 30, 2012 8:32:19 GMT -5
Selena felt completely everywhere at that moment. She wanted to slap Angel and insult him, hug him and tell him about how sorry she was and another part just wished she could forget him, so she didn't have to be there. She couldn't forget Angel though. Angel made a few mistakes in life, well a lot but who hadn't. Selena wasn't exactly perfect either. Selena felt the silence grow between them. She wasn't sure if it was her silence or his. Her mind was astray. She had a thousand words, but nothing to say.
Hearing him sigh, she looked up at him. She listened to him carefully. "I don't want you to pretend this didn't happen." Selena told him. She didn't blame him for not forgetting it. Forgive not forget, right? "I love you too. I don't expect that. Not at all." Selena sighed. She tried to focus on everything that was going on. Selena loved Angel. She thought he was adorable and attractive, but Selena wouldn't want to sleep with him or date him. She loved him in a sense that if she had to give her life up so he could keep his, she'd do so with out a second thought. That was her best friend.
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Post by Angel Sala on Apr 27, 2012 22:45:26 GMT -5
He nodded, "okay. So long as you know that then we're cool" he smiled half heartedly, in pain from the lack of meds, but trying his damnedest to fight that feeling off. "I'm sorry too. I mean I was fucking asshole, but we do stupid shit when we're hurting..." he wished he could get up and hug her, but there was no way that was gonna happen. For one he was in enough pain sitting still he could only imagine moving, and for another they both had wounds, a hug would fucking suck right at that moment.
"So uhm... I'd hug you but under the circumstances can we just settle for an air high five, Chickadee?" Angel asked with a light smirk. In all honestly it probably fit better for them anyways, considering how unconventional they were and everything.
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Post by Selena Right(A) on Apr 29, 2012 19:43:43 GMT -5
Selena smiled. This just made the night better. She needed Angel. She needed Angel when they were fighting. Selena wanted to get up and hug him, but she couldn't. Hearing him, she raised her hand and air fived him. She thought back to what he said before "Oh. I'd take my life for you too. You're an amazing best friend..." She told him. "God, injuries suck." She adjusted herself slightly.
ooc sorrry its short
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Post by Selena Right(A) on Apr 29, 2012 19:43:43 GMT -5
Selena smiled. This just made the night better. She needed Angel. She needed Angel when they were fighting. Selena wanted to get up and hug him, but she couldn't. Hearing him, she raised her hand and air fived him. She thought back to what he said before "Oh. I'd take my life for you too. You're an amazing best friend..." She told him. "God, injuries suck." She adjusted herself slightly.
ooc sorrry its short
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